CONTENT WARNING: Discussion of Suicide and Mental Instability
Tears falling down their cheeks, their voices breaking, one by one each fan went up to tell their personal connection to Jonghyun.
Kim Jong-Hyun passed away December 18, 2017 from suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning. Kim or Jonghyun, as his fans lovingly called him, was a prominent member of well known k-pop boy group Shinee.
When he passed away it made a tremor in more than just South Korea. The world mourned his passing. Hallyu fans all over sobbed and memorialized Kim.
Kim allegedly suffered from depression.
As time passed by, things started to get moving again. But Kim was never forgotten. At this year’s KCON New York on June 23, 2018 all of his fans gathered to honor his name.
The event was completely full to the extent that fans even had to stand outside of the tent where it took place.
There were four panelists. One of the panelists was Cortney of the famous Youtube pair 2MinJinkJongKey.
One of the panelists described “feeling his presence” a memorial service to Kim in Atlanta.
Cortney said “We did the balloon release and there was one light that like turned greenish.” Cortney continued that the light started to flicker.
She said “everyone was like what is happening.” She said they were surrounded by a lake and that even though she wasn’t paying attention something beautiful happened during the event.
There were animals around them. Initially she thought it was trash at first but she says “someone pointed out to me that there had been one white duck that was like sitting there like right next to the memorial service the whole time and right behind it on the other side of the trees, there were four white ducks” watching the lone duck the whole time.
She said that with that experience she felt like he was there during the memorial.
Not only did fans break down in tears while describing their personal connection to Kim, they also described the importance of continuing to support Shinee.
Personal connections ranged from Kim and Shinee helping them survive suicide attempts and other actions connected to mental instability to just loving Jonghyun’s music and personality.
Of course a number isn’t enough but it is important to be able to reach out to a trained professional. So if you or someone you know needs help, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
As cheesy as it sounds, there is always a light at the tunnel. If you feel like someone you know needs help but doesn’t know how to reach out, please make the first move. Opening up the conversation can save a life.